At last.....

Semester 4 in UTM was the most toughest semester for me in the beginning. However, everything started well at that moment i enter for the new semester. As usual, active in participating in programs organized by either collage or society in UTM. I just manage to share this meaningful program for me which is our Gas Engineering Student Society Industry Visit 2010 lead by Farehan as Program Director and Me as Vice Director of this program.

We traveled from Universiti Teknologi Malaysia(UTM) all the way to Kerteh, Terengganu, stayed a night at TATI and have a visit to Pertonas Cari Gali there. Next, we heading to Shah Alam, Gas Malaysia and have a tour all around Shah Alam visiting city gate and stations at road side. Proceed, we heading to Port Dickson and planned to stayed a night at beach but fail due to the weather that night. And we all ended up staying at Apartment at Port Dickson. We did not ended at Port Dickson but continue our journey to Melaka after visiting ExxonMobil at Port Dickson. Our last destination is Petronas Refinery Melaka. Having bus tour to the "Balai Cerap" for better view of the plant. This program is quite challenging part for me because a lot of problems occur and let me learned a lot through this program.

After the Industry Visit, my journey not yet end. I heading to Kuala Lumpur and from here i going back to Miri. Introducing my beloved brother that i knew him through a group. Loving king person... Nelson sygkan abg selalu. Adk doakan yang terbaek buat abg ku syg...


This is one of the food that i eat in Kuala Lumpur.. Quite nice.. thump up.. located at Pavilion..hehe.. still got plenty but just allow me to show this..hehe... yummy yummy...

Right after arrive Miri, i plan to buy a cake for my brother as 3 May was his birthday. Im happy to see him so happy during the singing and cutting cake moment. Wish the best for my family. I love you all..
Arrive Miri of course i cant forget my dearest brothers and sister, NAMRRAFF forever. Hang out with Bro Ddie and Roddy on Tuesday and Wednesday Night. Watch Iron Man 2 for 2 times. Gosh... But both not bored because watching it together with those i cared the most.


Of course not forgetting my dearest ex classmates. Study together since Primary School until the end of Form5. Leaders of the school for once together with them, bringing the school to another level with our lead. yeah... Having dinner and walk with them was so damn cool.. so many things to chat. Cerita dahulu kala....


Actually my ticket coming back to Miri was bought by my mum with the intention of celebrating Mother's Day in Miri. But ended up, she didnt come back this time. Hurm... This flower bought by Me and my sister for our beloved grandmother. Happy Mother's Day to all those been called Mother.
And i believe the most important part of my life all happen here. Its happen in 3 May 2010 at LCCT. A person appear to my life and make my heart melt. A person that appear and conquer my heart and reserved. A person that appear that make me fall in love. A person that appear that make me have the reason to change and be the best just for you. A smile that conquer everything. I love you so much dear........ Suratan atau Kebetulan?? semuanya jodoh...

Forever ever i will remember 3 May 2010 as my anniversary of loving you.

A month after.....

Time past really fast and now already past one month... In the beginning of this semester, my motivation was on the peak but slowly decrease and until now i totally give up to perform better for this semester... I dont have that kind of motivation at all.. I feel so down.. I miss my family in Miri especially during this Chinese New Year season... But thank God i still have my aunt and uncle at Kuala Lumpur.. Manage to have reunion dinner with them...
After week of study, i enjoy myself very much with my coursemate but yet still feel so empty until week 8 I found something to replace the emptiness... Having plenty of great time, dinner, movies shopping.. This is totally different... the warm is there... But i really dont know what to say afterall... feeling of scare...is there... scare that this sweet memory and moment will just past by and left me just awhile...
This year is totally a different feeling toward myself.. I even feel more down then last year.. Why?? is it because the second year of missing the chance to celebrate new year at hometown?? i really miss Miri and family at Miri so much... even my coursemate also know that im having homesick starting last night... That feeling come after i discover that i lost my wallet... I feel so directionless and need someone to come into my life to guide me through.. Yet i still dont have the gut to tell what i feel actually... because i know i have the feeling.....

My last word before leaving Miri for year....

Living for so long, i never show other that im so "jiwang" but this time i come back everything changed... I dont know why my angel able to touched my heart so deeply.... but time by time past, i always feel so discouraged. Why loving angel is so damn hard??? Why im not into the one that angel likes?? Why Why Why?? i keep asking myself... Why im not the prefect person? Why?? But i never get the answer... What will come next into my life?? i knew that angel cant be replaced by other in shortest time...
I cant imagine that i will receive gift before i going back... Because this is the first time before i leaving Miri and got gift from someone mean special to me... But before this, i really touched by Cj2, Cj3 and Cj8 for the last sent(airport and flower) and forever i will remember what had happened as the sweetest memories with guys...

Teddy Teddy... for those who mean so special for me... Once appear in my life and be so special to me... Forever i will remember you guys... Muahhhh......

Dady, congratulation for finally finish ur SPM.... Its already two years called u dady already ho..haha... Thank for last night spending your precious time with me... Its have been such a long time i didnt have night walk at park already... Dady, hope that our relationship never reach the end lo... No matter what will still called you dady. So dady forever ya..hehe....

Haiz... after all those happy moments.... finally stress moment gonna happen... Sharp midnight 12am, Baboon buzz me and telling me that we able to check the overall result already. Hurm.. overall i was so thankful that i able to score and maintain my CGPA... But this result is still not as good as i aimed... I need more and more... But finally i found the one who will be my motivator... with this angel i will do my very best.... Will score the best just for my angel and my future....
CHEMICAL ENGINEERING THERMODYNAMIC
TRANSPORT PROCESS
CHEMICAL ANALYSIS
ORGANIC CHEMISTRY 2
CHOIR
ECONOMIC ENGINEERING
Here i come to conquer.... with the power of L***.......

Namamu akan terpahat kukuh dalam hati...

Month in my Hometown...

Its already the last week im staying in Miri. My next step in Miri will be in the end of 2010. Lot of things happen in Miri.. Happy, Joy, Appreciated, until im Sad also have. When i first arrive Miri, we straight have the planing for reunion dinner among our Ex-Form 6-ian. We having it at 925 and heading for Bowling session after that.

Little princess of my family was born in 2nd December 2009, 11.17am at General Hospital.... after week of admission. Princess Chloe Kho was born and 3 days later been discharged but the next day was admitted once again for another 2 days. Today finally she go back home with her mother.

After all, nothing special happen but in a sudden, a caring angel appear in my life and bring hope bring happiness bring everything i need into my life..... The angel that i loved, the angel that i cared... The angel that i willing to sacrifice everything i can just for the angel. Having nice time with angel of mine even just two days. Having dinner together, watching Ninja Assasin, watching Astroboy, having a walk at beach, and lot mores of sweet memories of mine.... I will not allowed any other to touched my heart anymore after this. I dont want to be hurt once again just like what happen... although never get the answer yet... I assume friend of angel gonna spoil my happiness. I will forever hate 7th December starting in my life now onward.... Because the day that make my breath stop, disaster in my life.... end of the world...
Bro Ask finally came to Miri and luckily i manage to meet u la bro... before i going back to Johor for my study. Thank for everything that u have given to me during the short trip. Although it was short but i hope most memorials thing for us. I guess so......... Thank for the movie and bowling sessions with dinner together... I will remember this... Hope our next date really can be fulfill la bro..... All the best in everything u do.....Forever hope the best for u guys......I love.... I care... I miss....

IN memorial of Nelson Chan Vui Kit (27th April 1988-7th December 2009)

Another hurting semester.......

Knowing the news about Tsunami at Bandar Aceh in the year of 2004 was really a sad story.. The situation was just like oh my God. This happen once again in my life with double waves. 9 November 2009 was the first wave striking my personal life.Knowing that my results was terribly bad, my whole life shaking. Trying to reach my mum but she not answering my call. Calling my sis and finally express all out to her. This was really unacceptable results for me.

2nd wave strikes me again last night....10 November 2009.... This was really hurt once again knowing that i didnt score for 2 papers that carries 6 credit hours. This time my feeling was kinda weird. Sad of course, happy also for sure. I dont know why i got this type of feeling...

But i really want to thank God because in the midst of my sadness, someone came into my life to cheer me up. Someone that come unexpectedly, care and really enlighten my vision which had been wipe out by that two waves of tsunami in my life.




This makes me think of my beloved family members in my school time. Because of them, NAMRRAFF were created, which stand for Nelson, Ainnol, Mary, Roddy, Rudy, Andrie, Fuad n Fitri. I love u guys so much....... But recently, after studying at UTM, we all seem to walk our own path and forgetting each other. I really hope that this will not end my dear brothers and sister.

Please give me strength and support that once again I can stand back to overcome all the obstacles and challenges in the coming semester and the rest of semesters. I really need to take back that two gold medals from UTM. I meant a lot to me and my family. I have to make my family proud of it. Currently im already 0.05 away from one of the gold medal.

Energy Balance>>> A-
Fluid Mechanics>>> B+
Organic Chemistry>>> B+
Ethnic Relations>> A-
Advance English>>> A
Photography>> B+

This results is really killing me hard... Aim for A and yet so far astray from the vision and mission of this semester. The question now is,do i still can achieve what i want for the rest of the semester with weaken strength and motivation???

Semester 3 is over,welcoming semester 4 in 1month time..

Holding this verse(Philp 4:13 I can do all things through HIM who strengthen me.) as my motivation during semester 3 in Universiti Teknologi Malaysia, studying Chemical Engineering major in Gas,taking Energy Balance, Differential Equation, Organic Chemistry, Ethnic Relations, Advanced English in Academic Communication,Fluid Mechanics, Organic Chemistry Lab and last but not least, Photography as my ko-q was really challenging for me. Sleepless night.. Endless assignments.. Killing tests... with 18 credit hours..
Officially after 15 weeks of lectures and finally it came to an end of it. Yesterday was officially end of it, ended with blurry situation, not confident in submitting my last final exam paper. But so far, a probabilities to score A is still there.. Still got hope to achieve my aim of scoring 4.0 for semester 3.
At last i do understand my eldest brother situation last time when he sits for his exam or study, he will have headache. I experienced it this semester during my final examination. Fluid mechanics, Organic Chemistry, Differential Equation and Energy Balance..... These subjects really causes me having headache during and after the paper. This really hindered me from continuing on study for another papers,moreover, we dont have even a gap of a day in preparing.. Could be said as lousy arrangement of timetable from authorities.
Now really release and doesnt feel any tense already because all is over for now.. Really want to relax my mind for one month and get ready for another challenging semester in 14 December 2009.Next semester probably will be a full pack semester due to 18 credit hours, will handling all the activities for GESS 2010, joining International Student Leadership Conference, this and that... Hurm.. really train us(undergraduate) to be tough and well-built.
I think that all i want share for now.. See u guys in Miri soon... Miss semester 3, welcoming semester 4..

Critical moments

Today onward was a critical point for everyone in UTM. Final examinations were just in a week time ahead. Registration for next semester also started today. In the beginning was so extremely scare because someone of my coursemate told me that when want to take signature from our penasihat akademik, we need to do this do that. But thank God. This three semesters non of this hindered me from taking his signature. Praise the Lord too I manage to maintain quite balance achievements in my studies. Past failure really must be taken as a teaching material,motivation but not condemnation to us. Strive for better through past failure.
Today, i settle all my burden. I submitted my photography assignments, taken my personal assistance signature and get one of my carry mark. At first was so disappointed with my carry mark but seem the highest was just few marks higher, i have nothing to say.
Energy Balance >> 39/50
Differential Equation>>45/50
Hurm... really hope to score for my final examination. This semester I aim for at least 3.9 if not i will drop from highest building in my life once again. This is the only chance i can score this time. scoring 40++ for final examination should not be a problems for us. Pray for me... Lord, Father Lord. i surrender all this into Your Hand. All things seem impossible for human but in your Eye, all things are possibles.

End of Semester 3 with Shaking Confident

In the beginning of this semester, I set my goal to score 4.0 for this semester. And start with prayer guide by Phip 4:13 I can do all things through HIM who strengthen me. I really believe that this verse can guide me through my hard time and down time.
One month past, two month goes three month leave, its time for final examination for this semester. I was quite disappointed with my performances in order for me to score 4.0 for this semester. But until now, current moment, i still put my faith in Lord that I still can score for it.
Sharing about my current results,
Energy Balance Test 1>> 7.1
Energy Balance Test 2>>5.8
Fluid Mechanics Test 1>>13.5
Fluid Mechanics Test 2>> 11
Differential Equation Test 1>> 13
Differential Equation Test 2>>22
Differential Equation Quiz>> 10
Organic Chemistry Test 1>>16
Organic Chemistry Quiz 1>>4.5
Ethnics Relation Test>> 23
These are the current results that i have for this semester. Still got Organic Chemistry Test2, Energy Balance Test 3, Organic Chemistry Quizzes on pending. So far the only carry mark that i know is my Differential Equation which is 45/50. Hope so with this carry mark, i manage to score A for my Differential Equation.
Today 3pm was the last lecture class for this semester. This semester we ended our class with English Class and with praise from Lecturer that this was the first time from her teaching experiences that we manage to finish English presentation of 8 groups within two days lecture classes. Finish earlier doesn't mean that we didn't present well but we managed to finish our presentation fast and full with information(hope so).
Last but not least, starting today and onward, it was a Study Week for me. Hope i can use this study week wisely because of the pack arrangement of my final exam timetable.
28/10>> Advanced English
29/10>>Ethnics Relation
30/10>> Fluid Mechanics
3/11>> Organic Chemistry (morning)
3/11>> Differential Equation(afternoon)
4/11>> Energy Balance
After tiring final examinations, i have a trip to Cameron Highlands with Nusatropika Club which is a new club replacing PUSAKA club in my residential collage. We will be going to spend our holiday there for 3 days in which we will depart from campus to the destination on 5th November night and will be back to campus on 8th November morning.
After this trip, maybe will be heading to Singapore(Sentosa) for one day and will be back to my beloved hometown( Miri) soon. I really miss Miri so much.

Precious Memories yet changes my life once again

2 October 2009, Friday, a journey to Muar, a village name Sengkang for a program named Intech 2009, organized by PERSAKA UTM and cooperation with KDSE UTM and UMNO. Around 40 students attending this event and among all, I'm the only chinese. At the beginning, I feel shy to continue joining this program, but this was the only chance i have. That true for what people say, opportunity just came once and will just past by just like that. Be so thankful that i managed to follow it. A nice memories yet destructive toward something that had long been form.

Representing the only 5 members of the total members joining this event from Kolej Tun Dr. Ismail UTM. From Faculty of Chemical and Natural Resources Engineering.
(from the left, Epol, Hakim, Sidek, me, Shah)

During the last meeting, i had been told that my adopted parent was a school head-mister. This situation make me shock. But let see. This was my adopted mother in this program. Pretty. Nice. Caring. Even just short 3 days 2 nights and we didn't take time to understand each other, but i really respect her just like my own mother. Religion didn't hindered me from having who as my adopted parents as long as they are really sincere in receive me into their life.

Introducing my best friend, the first friend that i know during this program. Mum brings me for visiting her school teacher houses for Raya Visiting. This was really a great experience that i have during this visiting. Before i forget, this is Hafiz, form 4 science stream student. Going to miss u much and never forget u brother.

Above and below: Here come some of the committee members in this program. All are from different faculties, different residential areas yet staying under one University to make a success of this program.

Members of the program that come together in unity with one mission. Bring happy memories for one another.

In tradition, this is what we called as "dodol". This is the first time i had hand-on experience in doing all this. Beside dodol, i did hand-on cooking rendang(below), kuah kacang, lemang, and etc.

On the final day, morning, we started our day with J-robik and next having sport with members of village. There were events for children, teenagers and members of village such as walking with ping-pong ball, jumping in gunny bag, throwing water balloons, ketupat making, slow bicycle, bricks walking, rope pulling, coconut bowling and etc. But I'm sad because i dont have the chance to participate in those events because Mum was not available for those events at that time.

This is the ketupat folded by women from the village during the ketupat making competition. I did brings two ketupat back and still hanging in my room which i consider it as a precious ketupat as i receive it from someone.

It had been quite a sometime i didn't stay longer than hours under hot sun. During this event, i got sun burn and turn my skin to black as before this im already dark enough.

A group of kompang player, to welcome VIP for the closing ceremony.

Silat members with VIP.

Group photo with VIP for the closing ceremony. Inside this pic, there are representative for MB Johor as he unable to attend the closing ceremony as he had another event to attend. Besides, there are members from UMNO such as the leader of Puteri UMNO, young and yet pretty lady, good yet caliber.

This picture was taken after the end of the closing ceremony before we all went back to UTM. From here, i started to feel sad to leave as here give me thousand of precious memories that changed my life.

This was the end of the program already and it's come to the time that i exchanged gifts with my adopted parent. I cant stand the sad feeling of leaving this village until i cry during this time. I feel embarrassed but yet i feel better of letting all out than just keep the sad feeling inside. At 6pm, the bus arrived and this time mum also drop feel drop of tears and she pushed me fast into the bus as i also feel better when i was in the bus. I gotta miss u much mum. This is by faith that i believe we able to be adopted mum and son. Hope this will be continue and not just ended on the third day of the program.

Jamuan Raya GESS 2009

1 October 2009, a history in my life and this might be the history for Gas Engineering Student Society(GESS) history. A total of 170++ GESS society members attending this event what we call Jamuan Raya GESS 2009 which been held in Dewan Serbaguna KTDI. This event doesn't have it own proper committee members but i was part of the organizer. Its was quite disappointed as only 1 lecturer who attend our night. I really pray that this wouldnt happen during our GESS Night 2010. This was also the first time i wear baju Melayu.
In this pic was Saufi, Epol, me, L and my junior. this pic taken after the event was over. I was really happy although i didnt eat much that night. However, the memories that i have not only cost me RM5 but more than that. I had been bought buy someone to sing a song with Ashwene.
This was bunch of my beloved coursemates. Without them in my university life, i wasnt be so happy and cheerful as i am now. Without them, i always discouraged.
Before we went back from the event, everyone was joke around and chit chatting around and some was karaoke-ing. I was busying taking pictures of the night.
Hah.. Come to this picture. On my left was Hakim and my right, my dear Baboon.. Wakaka... From the beginning of my entry into UTM until now, he was my closest friend of all. I really hope this never ends until graduation and still hope can continue to keep in contact even in working world already one day.
Representing, the Putera-Puteri SKG. Cun yang cun, handsome yang handsome, cantik yang cantik. We are one family in SKG and without u guys, this wasnt a good organization.
Not forgetting also, this was a bunch of my beloved juniors. So coincidentally we all wear almost the same style attire.
He come my handsome junior. Hehe.. He was the first person to called me Handsome in the beginning. I was so shock but i just layan him lo. But now that calling already gone. Back to normal. However, even he didnt mean it, but at least i was once been called so. That already more than enough for me.
Hafizi, one of my handsome junior. Hurm. Really close with us before and now one by one take off the foot from our memories. Yes i believe they have the own life too. But i really wish that we all senior and juniors still can be as close as before.
Last but not least, my partner of the night. Hehe... Just for that night. To usher our beloved lecturer to the dinner room.

That night was really a happening night for me although i feel disappointed with some lecturers. But i believe everything gotta be more better than each time of organization of any events been held. All the best. Idup GESS....

Sudden drop of level of confident

Today, 7 October-First time lecturer of ours comment on our performances in our test 2 which just past for 2 days ago. This is the first time he do so.. At first i was really confident that i able to score A for this subject but now, i know i have no chance to score even a good grade for my test 2. Maybe just manage to score about 12 marks only. Oh man. I lost about 8 marks in test 2... 1.5 marks in test 1. Still got how many marks able for me to lose during coming test??

Sometime i think this was good because at least having some pressure for me to study well during study week.. But in the other hand, this will bring me to the level of dangerous from dropping out of 4.0..... Hurm.... just think the positive ways are not enough at all.. Hurm... this is all the thingy i want to say today... But lot of things in my mind that i wanted to share... but one by one la ya...

Sad...

Today in a sudden i feel very sad..
I also dont know what is the real causes..
I felt that Im already reach the dead-end..
Feel that nobody can help me for all the problems i face..
But a simple care from you, is much more than enough for me..
Simple call from you make me laugh and brighten back..
Really thank hengtai..

Actually really confident with myself but now a little shaky...

Didnt update for long not because no time to online but just didnt update my blog.
Hurm... I just want to share that, in the beginning of this semester, i was quite confident to score to maintain my 2 Gold Medalist during my graduation in 2012( wish u guys where there for me).

After long weeks of waiting just right before Raya Holiday, lecturers told us "this the token for Raya Holiday". He gave back all the the test papers. And here come my hand start to shake and pray that i can get good grade this time.. But so damn disappointed occurs when i first receive my papers... Another strike after another strikes. Just like thunder strike right into my fragile heart.

Energy Balance 1>> 7.1/10
Energy Balance 2>> 5.8/10
Differential Equation>> 13/15
Fluid Mechanics>>13.5/15
Organic Chemisty>>9/10
Organic Chemisty 1>>16/20

These are all my results that i scores so far. I was really scare actually. For lot of people this is really good enough but not for my satisfactory yet. But i still have to Praise the Lord for what i have. Been thankful is much more important that what i want. Because without Him, my life is nothing(AMEN).

Im sad because someone who not qualify at all had scored better than me. Hurm.. Sound that i very bossy right? But that the truth, that me. Not happy when other that i think not qualify doing better than me. I hate myself because all the mistake that i have done. I can do much better that particular, but just too careless... Should knock my head right?? yeah you should.

But i dont want to think all those again.. I want to concentrate for my coming tests on 5,6 n 11 October before Final Exam on 28,29,30 October and 3,4 November...
For information, i going to Singapore on 7 November before going back to Miri on 12 November. Hurm.. miss you guys so much.. Love ya.. muahh.. hehe..

Coming back from tiring weeks before.....

Finally i have a sometime for me to jotted down what had happened this few weeks of my missing... Starting from where? should say last two weeks Sunday..

I went to Singapore Science Center after sunday service and i was totally amaze by my view itself... That place was really great and awesome.. All things not done by human itself actually.. all is the highest praise that human should give to God.. God is much more amazing that other.... Starting from this day onward, i was looking onward for the coming events that going to be held by City Harvest Church Outreach Johor or IKUTM. Starting to join cell group as well.. God was really amazing in the way of tocuhing people heart....

That was really great... Coming to my study, hurm.. lot of exams to be sitted.... just like tonight and tomorrow morning..huh.. tensions... but what can i do?? just surrender it to God.. i do my part and i believe He do his part for my life as well... So weird that i think this should be noted as my testimony of the day.. I woke up late one monday and so coincide that my aunt in law message me asking for my email.. Hurm.. God really work in his way.. Everything that not plan by us was well plan happening.. I was so touch by Him until i drop my tear alone.. Guys... remember this.. We're not alone at all.......

Things continued to happen.. until i have not enough time to jotted down.. but luckily i have my own diary.. every event every moments, i had jot down for memories in future... haha... Hurm.... i really hope that i can continue flow with the flow of my church members... able to catch back what i had lost or lose during the time i had been missing...

Sad day with sweet dream....

Because today going to have a quiz on the sub chapter that i still not really understand the proper ways to solve it, i start a study group with my group members who are my baboon(Mohd L), Shuhaida and me myself but this time Epol did join us....

We manage to finish all the assignment questions and go back to my room before 1am.. What a tiring night actually....

This morning in order to arrive faculty early, i wake up at 6.45am and get ready to catch up first round of FKKKSA bus.... Arriving with breaking the record, today im the first one to switch on the light in our lecture class.. was well prepared i think... Upon receiving the quiz paper, was so happy that i understand the question just that i can do a minimum part... as a result, i cant score full.. this make me stress enough when he(my lecturer) say the progress of our assignment which in actual i already done it by myself....

Not only that, today he gave back my Energy Balance Test 1 paper.. Hurm.. the result wasnt really good for me... because still got few students score even higher... But for some, this result(71) is good enough.. another strike of stress come to my mind...

During the one hour break, was thinking " what's wrong with me?? what's happen to me?" I answer myself that i already done my best.. everyone have the limitation.. not i didnt try or do, but the limit is there.... was so scare another wave of stress comes during Fluid Mechanics class... what a lucky that the paper not yet ready...

Lecture is over for today.. and now preparing to go for photography class... hurm.. that was my dream to take up this class... but there a lot of assignments to be done also.. hurm.. if i have my own DSLR camera, i dont think those are problems or burdens to me... BUT i dont have the chance to hold my own DSLR for sure... Upon arriving at the class, i had been told that i have to choose few pictures and briefly explain what i think about those pictures that i had chosen....Nervous day...

I dont know why today i really so tired... maybe of emotional?? i also dont know.... Arrive at my room, i didnt take my rest straight but i chatting with Zakey... really long time didnt chat with them and i told him i going back to Miri this coming November... Hope to enjoy my last holiday of the year there....

After period of times, finally i feel really tired and really want to sleep.. If got recorder, sure will record such a great sound of my snore.... haha... opz.. shy.... But what make my sleep such a wonderful rest, i dream of my mum again... hurm.. Although it looks sad dream but for me, i release my tension..
I told my mum that im not happy today because of i done pretty bad in my test.... then she hugs me and i started to cry in her hugs... And i dream she promises me that during my graduation, my whole family members will come to my graduation on 2012 if nothing wrong during my period of study... I really hope grandma will be here, mother, sister, brother in law, brother, sister in law, bro, mummy,uncles and aunties for those who really supports me... all those who really loves me...

Then i receive a phone call from Sis Sue Ping but due to my unconsciousness, i didnt answer her call.. hurm... What next???

Praise the Lord for the hardwork paid off....

Praise be unto U o Lord... Actually i also not sure about how it going to be but, at least i already tried my best throughout the whole semester... As i mention before, a gang of 4 this semester really make a different as never before... Almost every free night, we wil gather at study area to study until early mid-night(12am).... For some, we are very hardworking, but behind, actually we play and chat more than we study.... But at least we study a bit, rather than for me if at room, i will just online and chit-chat with friend through YM or MSN....

I really pray that this thingy will continue till the end if we manage to stay at the same collage again.... I really hope that during August 2012, all of us will graduate with joy and laughter and tear of getting FIRST CLASS DEGREE CHEMICAL ENGINEERING-GAS..... that was my aim toward all of us...

After sharing long away vision, came back to tonight(12 August 2009) i really feel that my hard work paid off.. for the first stage.. at least i can pass maybe.... Final stage will be shared again during coming post.... At the beginning i was really scare, nervous and damn shaking my hand after reading the question for first round... due to the strict lecturer again, my heart beat even fast.... After minutes, everything settle down and i manage to answer peacefully...

Luckily i manage to done my test in the nearest time although i write everything almost in details.... I discover that i convert into wrong unit.... after first check, i manage to do second check and so on.... Hurm... before that, just finishing writing the final answer of the last question, everyone of us had been told about the SG of seawater... actually i already finish answering and yet i didnt realize all those mistake.... luckily we had been told about that value, and this make me can answer quite pretty well...

To be continue.......