Time past really fast and now already past one month... In the beginning of this semester, my motivation was on the peak but slowly decrease and until now i totally give up to perform better for this semester... I dont have that kind of motivation at all.. I feel so down.. I miss my family in Miri especially during this Chinese New Year season... But thank God i still have my aunt and uncle at Kuala Lumpur.. Manage to have reunion dinner with them...
After week of study, i enjoy myself very much with my coursemate but yet still feel so empty until week 8 I found something to replace the emptiness... Having plenty of great time, dinner, movies shopping.. This is totally different... the warm is there... But i really dont know what to say afterall... feeling of scare...is there... scare that this sweet memory and moment will just past by and left me just awhile... 
This year is totally a different feeling toward myself.. I even feel more down then last year.. Why?? is it because the second year of missing the chance to celebrate new year at hometown?? i really miss Miri and family at Miri so much... even my coursemate also know that im having homesick starting last night... That feeling come after i discover that i lost my wallet... I feel so directionless and need someone to come into my life to guide me through.. Yet i still dont have the gut to tell what i feel actually... because i know i have the feeling.....
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