Sunday, September 27, 2009


Today in a sudden i feel very sad..
I also dont know what is the real causes..
I felt that Im already reach the dead-end..
Feel that nobody can help me for all the problems i face..
But a simple care from you, is much more than enough for me..
Simple call from you make me laugh and brighten back..
Really thank hengtai..

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Actually really confident with myself but now a little shaky...

Didnt update for long not because no time to online but just didnt update my blog.
Hurm... I just want to share that, in the beginning of this semester, i was quite confident to score to maintain my 2 Gold Medalist during my graduation in 2012( wish u guys where there for me).

After long weeks of waiting just right before Raya Holiday, lecturers told us "this the token for Raya Holiday". He gave back all the the test papers. And here come my hand start to shake and pray that i can get good grade this time.. But so damn disappointed occurs when i first receive my papers... Another strike after another strikes. Just like thunder strike right into my fragile heart.

Energy Balance 1>> 7.1/10
Energy Balance 2>> 5.8/10
Differential Equation>> 13/15
Fluid Mechanics>>13.5/15
Organic Chemisty>>9/10
Organic Chemisty 1>>16/20

These are all my results that i scores so far. I was really scare actually. For lot of people this is really good enough but not for my satisfactory yet. But i still have to Praise the Lord for what i have. Been thankful is much more important that what i want. Because without Him, my life is nothing(AMEN).

Im sad because someone who not qualify at all had scored better than me. Hurm.. Sound that i very bossy right? But that the truth, that me. Not happy when other that i think not qualify doing better than me. I hate myself because all the mistake that i have done. I can do much better that particular, but just too careless... Should knock my head right?? yeah you should.

But i dont want to think all those again.. I want to concentrate for my coming tests on 5,6 n 11 October before Final Exam on 28,29,30 October and 3,4 November...
For information, i going to Singapore on 7 November before going back to Miri on 12 November. Hurm.. miss you guys so much.. Love ya.. muahh.. hehe..

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Coming back from tiring weeks before.....

Finally i have a sometime for me to jotted down what had happened this few weeks of my missing... Starting from where? should say last two weeks Sunday..

I went to Singapore Science Center after sunday service and i was totally amaze by my view itself... That place was really great and awesome.. All things not done by human itself actually.. all is the highest praise that human should give to God.. God is much more amazing that other.... Starting from this day onward, i was looking onward for the coming events that going to be held by City Harvest Church Outreach Johor or IKUTM. Starting to join cell group as well.. God was really amazing in the way of tocuhing people heart....

That was really great... Coming to my study, hurm.. lot of exams to be sitted.... just like tonight and tomorrow morning..huh.. tensions... but what can i do?? just surrender it to God.. i do my part and i believe He do his part for my life as well... So weird that i think this should be noted as my testimony of the day.. I woke up late one monday and so coincide that my aunt in law message me asking for my email.. Hurm.. God really work in his way.. Everything that not plan by us was well plan happening.. I was so touch by Him until i drop my tear alone.. Guys... remember this.. We're not alone at all.......

Things continued to happen.. until i have not enough time to jotted down.. but luckily i have my own diary.. every event every moments, i had jot down for memories in future... haha... Hurm.... i really hope that i can continue flow with the flow of my church members... able to catch back what i had lost or lose during the time i had been missing...